looking at my self, again i taught i was recovered and already adjusted from the things that boders me, but again i knew that i was lost, truly lost, i was in my way to nothing, going to the place where i really don't exactly know the place, looking at myself, "what shall i get if i will just wait for my right mode to come back" "where can i run again if i was lost?" those things have no answers, yes i might be a person that is so different from others, but, why should i blame God? why will i seek for other's love? is not God's love enough? is not the cross enough? why should i earn grace from others is not his grace enough? that time that my hope was nothing, my hope was worn out, i just look at myself, if who am i.yeah, i lose everything, but now i wanna start, God has a great plan fir my life, though i cry a lot of times i knew that it will be his hands that will wipe my tears, washing all my sins, and forgiving all my sins. i want to really g home, to come back home at my father's house, in the place where he really care and in that place where everyday he will say that " I LOVE YOU SON" an amazing father that can really accept me, i say to you LORD, sorry GOD.
