where are you?

as i looked into my life, sometimes and many times i wanna ask myself, "jas? where are you?" "are you still there?" and even asking my self cannot be the solution in finding me. LIfe does not fit in my expectations. when things get wrong I don't know what to do. Right now, while having this blog, I'm listening to the song first love by avalon. I wanna ask GOd "LOrd, where did I lose it?" I can really say that this is the most emotional blog I had. The things I wanted was lost. things I was not expecting had done. I knew those are my faults. ARE these THINGS happening are true? WHAT shall I do? wILL I believe it?is this me? a lot of questions that even I myself can't answer it. Ehen people judged me, I will not say anythinG i WANT TO ASK MYSELF, DO THEY KNOW MW? NA EVEN i MYSELF DOn't know i am. can I say that I'M THIS person doing this article now? is this really jasper? WHEN DID i LOSE JASPER when did I lost my LOve?